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It’s not something you want to think about, but it surfaces.

I was recalling the past and an epiphany came to me. The beginning of when my ex started becoming jealous is unclear, but it started to unravel in the middle of 2025.

He started lying and acting unusual because he was forcing his hand – when men like this self destruct, they’ll end up blaming you.

My mother was dying, so I told him in trust, that if it comes to that – her hospitalization, I’d need his help. He agreed. I then said I would compensate him for his plane ticket. Just being a loving girlfriend.

That’s about $700 if bought a day or two before. This and I also suggested I’d “help” with his credit card. I stated – we needed to move out of her place. These were clear cut conversations.

What was I expecting from a grown man living with his mother – whom he wanted to murder?

My mother didn’t end up hospitalized until September. It was as if her spirit knew. He fucked up in March, by quitting his job. A good paying job. He cried about his work load but wanted full time. It wasn’t the time to quit and the work force quickly showed him why. He couldn’t find anything else – that mark was against him.

He lied about an angel telling him to quit his job – I speak with spirits, and never lied about it. He was going off of things that happened for me…and he was going about it all wrong. Lying about angels? Quitting your job? I said – “we’ll see,” because I knew more was to come.

In May, I started working for Amazon Vine, I received my plaque for my work, and I was nominated for the Marquis’ Who’s Who. I also finished another interview through Voyage Magazine.

He complained to me, “why didn’t I get nominated?” His producer had, he was upset. Shows how he felt about her too. When he finally got his nomination, he fumbled it. The title was unprofessional, eager and made him look controlling and foolish. But he got his feature, right?

I thought that would be enough, but when I found out he entered a contest without telling me (while I was first place in mine) I realized the ugly truth had come out. He wasn’t taking notes from me, he was copying me. He wasn’t proud of me…he was saying it to save face.

I thought…maybe I’m over reacting? He was already self destructing, perhaps this was a turn around for him?

Wrong. He started running out of money, and I just signed paperwork to be on my mother’s account…that just so happened to have tens of thousands of dollars. He knew because I trusted him with that information.

It just occurred to me that he thought I was going to give him money…just to give it to him. He thought it worked like that. I offered a reasonable amount, and he was about to take that inch and jump a mile.

I told him he was stuck – and without acknowledging that I was holding my family together…suggested I was too. Gaslighting me. Threatening me with suicide, “the last time someone blocked me, I wanted to kill myself.”

Turns out he’s still alive.

But he is stuck. A grown man who wants to murder his mother but can’t find a decent job to get his own place…so he lives with her…

Is stuck. And I told him, he would come out here and try something or feel some kind of way, and I wouldn’t tolerate it. It won’t work.

He was trying to copy everything I did, as if he should already have what I have…when he could have just been happy and supportive. Some of my family who knew about him reported during his performances…he was even trying to recite his own songs the way I do my own. I imagine he’s still watching my pages and taking notes he can’t even read.

Then came the biggest bomb of all. My page kept getting reported. I complained to him about it. And he sat there with a straight face and lied to me, knowing what I was after. It wasn’t until he was blocked that I realized he was reporting my pages and posts.

After breaking up with him, I confided in a mutual friend. It’s when I realized he was friends with older women who either had kids or money – or both. Two thousand or more unbeknownst, half naked women following him…babying him for being a narcissist.

I won’t give his name, he doesn’t deserve that spotlight. But I needed to get that off of my chest.

I am so glad I caught his patterns and left. Best decision I made in 2025.