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Took me long enough…

Ah, yes. The age old conversation I have with others about what I do, and how many followers I have that ALWAYS pops up. The first thing people say is-

“Oh wow, you’re famous.” Especially men. That bit is annoying…I’m not a trophy.

If you couldn’t tell from the tone of this blog, I typically didn’t consider that until now.

According to my 69k+ followers, I am a celebrity. I have often told my mother I don’t like the title because I want to work. (source article below)

But we’re going to be honest here…why the fuck else am I doing this? Obviously to get the word out. But I can’t get the word out if no one hears me…so you gather a following. I orignally had 79k back in 2023 before I walked away. I wasn’t engaging, or breaking bad habits to grow. It was more of a cancerous growth I was pretending wasn’t there.

I am glad I walked away, and then I bumbled right back into the thick of it. However this time, I view everything I’ve done much differently.

This is interesting, I’m inducted into the Marquis Who’s Who of Emerging Leaders and I don’t think I’m famous…

For example…I took my time with The Fray (and I know I bring this up often, but it was a strategy that worked) and my music also put me in the stratosphere. To do this alone is probably the greater feat here…let’s be honest.

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Right – my novel has surpassed 25k views here on my website. What is there for me to be upset about or doubt? Honestly, feeling any other way is insane. So let’s dissect this – why do we do this? Part of it is believing you have to have insane amounts of anything to look..successful…But even if you had only one hundred followers, and were completing your goals…

It is more than enough.

When you have this type of attitude (I’m not doing enough*) about what you do…you often attract people who join in on making you feel poorly about what you do. I just cut off someone for underplaying every thing good that would happen. She’d say -“we’ll see,” then copy the exact thing I was doing.

Surrounding yourself with no one is an option as well. I’m not lonely, I have morals. It wasn’t until THIS YEAR that I began to realize how much of an effect I have on my followers, and anyone who stumbles across me and my work.

When someone chokes back their words and says – “holy shit, that’s a lot of followers…” my mind doesn’t go…”ya, it is.” No, I say…”not really.”

“Yes it is,” they argue, “That’s a lot. You’re a celebrity.”

Society makes unimportant things big so you can feel small. From one person to the other – let me tell you this much.

Trying everyday makes you a giant in my eyes.

Source – https://www.cosmopolitan.com/uk/work/careers/a28302319/number-of-followers-celebrity/