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It rained so much last night, that I’m positive there were flash flood warnings. I just hope the pollen has been washed away for the most part.

Last night I panicked – I damn near missed the deadline for my interview. It didn’t take me long, but it was frustrating considering I had to deal with someone’s crap. It just so happened to start when the interview was offered. Of course it happened that way.

If you’re living your life to prove others wrong, you must be exhausted. Exhausted and disappointed. Because the same individuals who spend their time picking you apart are too miserable to admit you’re great – or will try to destroy everything you’ve built up when you begin receiving the praise and accolades you deserve.

You should accomplish goals for yourself, and see how far that gets you. The model set up all around us keeps people stuck without them realizing it. That’s probably why award shows exist, to cover up the stench of bullshit.

I’m building an empire for my family. Others watching are not my kin, so why do their opinions matter? They don’t. I’ll suffer a lifetime of consequences to say I really don’t care what anyone thinks.

If I did, I wouldn’t have come this far.

So on one end, where I was doing a song and dance to appease basically idiots, I’d rather not turn to necromancy, and dig up the past like that. Let it rest in pieces. Let it rot without my needing to address it.

The more you think about things this way, the more you realize you owe nothing to anyone.