When you pull the nine of cups in tarot, it signals a long desired wish of yours is coming true. It felt like I waited forever.
Like I was underwater, holding my breath with no end in sight.
Then one day, it just happened.
It – being what I deserve and wished for. The type of unconditional, unwavering love that I give has returned to me. I kept saying – surely since I exist…and I am good. There is someone out there for me.
I finished my interview for SCJR Educational Initiative, in association with HBCUs. My boyfriend was excited about the details. During the interview, one of the girls asked if I would ever visit Chicago. I hadn’t been since I was 10. Their director realized the invitation and suggested I come out for the holidays as a special guest.
My boyfriend was so excited, he wanted to take me out to eat. Of course I agreed. I’m not used to things like this.
And so the story goes. One of the first things he ever shared to me was from a creator I already followed. She custom makes body jewelry – like thigh cuffs. Particularly for curvy and plus size women.
He always hops out of his truck and hugs me – always. Afterwards, we got in, and he’s reaching back for something. I’m blabbering as always. Then he hands it to me. My eyes lit up and I exclaimed, “is this from the lady who makes these on instagram!” He’s grinning. He’s so sneaky haha. When does he get the time?
The rest of the evening is food, me apologizing for talking too much, and him reminding me that if he didn’t want to be there, he wouldn’t be.
It dawned on me recently – I have been through absolute hell. This is the only time in my life where no one is abusing me, stealing from me, or trying to sabotage my work.
He says what he’s doing is normal. I was made to believe its a fairy tale. Honestly, my childlike wonder wants to treat it that way. The way he loves seeing me just to see me. We talk, he listens. He knows what I like. I need help, he’s there. Asking for nothing in return.
So yes. The nine of cups was pulled. My long desired wish came true. Him.