I never idle. I move when moved. I remember when the nurse from the clinic my mother visited called me right after I touched down in North Carolina – “she has cancerous cells…” Her voice trailed off. Cancer? I took a deep breath, respecting the confidentiality agreement. She told me what I could…it sounded severe….
Category: understanding
An “Ism”
You cannot relay messages now, without people taking them way out of context. It’s easier to spot when anemone really needs help, more than you realize. We find peace in our own ways. Happiness comes to us in different routes. Contentment ushers itself in with different dynamics for everyone. Being easily triggered has two causes…
Autumn Bliss
The fall winds crisp the air at night. Sighing deeply, I nuzzle further into my layers of blankets, intertwined with my body warmed pajamas and cool linens. The feeling of both surges my joy, and I allow myself to relax. I’m not counting the days to anything, I want to breathe. Sometimes, I listen to…
Oftentimes
It’s natural to hope and wish for things. It is unnatural to use your displeasure against someone. Whether it is your career, love or a longtime dream coming true…blaming others won’t make it so. You are then drowning in misery, and trying to take everyone along with you. I’ve heard a lot of people suggest…
Call It What It Is
The hysteria behind fashion has always tickled me – here and now reading materials used on high end items and realizing my Amazon finds are much better has me in stitches. Gold plated brass…is brass with fine metals on top. And literally nothing more. The gold will wear off because it can be rubbed away…
Yeah, Sure…
There is something about patience that I marvel at. I am particularly patient myself, alongside my nature to never give up. What I find comical is when someone randomly suggests they are patient, but you later find they were plotting. The thing about waiting is…it can be nerve wracking. I find myself doing puzzles, reading…
Sustaining Effort
People don’t like hearing great things take time. Yet, anytime I’ve rushed anything, it simply never worked. While forcing anything also fails you, building over time is way more sustainable. Establishing yourself and remaining consistent are key. I’ve come to realize that no matter how much I say this, it falls on deaf ears. I…
Stereotypes Equal Ignorance
I see the realm of ignorance hasn’t broaden. This is a touchy topic, but let’s talk about it. African Americans and other people of color stereotype their own people, constantly. My recent experience is proof many do not want to shed the bullshit. I have namely been classified as “white washed,” because I listen to…
Not Willing to Wait
A repeated cycle that eclipsed my every move – the need to rush into everything, after having diligently taken my time to begin with. The fear of losing out. It was expensive. So I learned, because then I became more concerned about never understanding my mistakes. Really, I was looking for peace, and self awareness….
Dark Femme – Hidden
Barely entering a coffee shop, several people look up and watch me. I’m nervous, and I hate conversations. People prod to see how far they can get. If they can’t break past my defenses, I’m a bitch. Or not worth it I just want coffee. I nervously look up at the menu, biding my time…
The Heiress JCS 