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This is difficult to blog about but needs to be addressed.

I remember the conversation very well. I decided to work on my page for FB monetizing. I told my former boyfriend, and he shared his delight.

When I began, I immediately hit a snag. I have always followed all rules for my pages, but suddenly posts were getting reported. I was disappointed, and of course had no one to really vent to except him, and my friend.

My friend was pretty upset…but my ex played it off.

He played it off so well, I was looking to blame other people. He never asked me who I thought it was, or his usual comforting words – it will all work out. It was as if he were waiting for my life to fall apart.

I converted my personal page to its original standing, and decided to work on my Facebook business page instead.

That worked so well for me! I began getting followers, reads, likes. It was going great. Then all of a sudden – I was hit with spam reporting…again. The notification stated my posts were reported as spam…but I’d only shown it once.

I was very disheartened but decided to remain positive. Around the same time, I realized his energy was off. It came to me one day. I began putting all of his crap together when I realized a lot was missing. The first time I confronted him, he gaslit me. We discussed his stuck behavior. Not letting go of past issues, blaming others. He had the fucking nerve to say I was stuck!

I let it simmer for a month but I still felt off. I told him EVERYTHING he’d done and he said I wasn’t wrong.

I bid my good byes, and would you know…shortly after he was blocked…I became eligible for monetizing?

I discussed this recently with someone I know (and think is rather cute.) What man sneaks around and tries to trip up someone he claims to love? Some of these men aren’t men. They’re little boys who refuse to mature.

What’s worse is that I actually believed he cared about me.

I’ve said all of this to say – on top of becoming an Amazon Affiliate – through Facebook (meaning I have personalized links) my page is now available for subscriptions.

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These are happy tears.