Adapting and Evolving

How have you adapted to the changes brought on by the Covid-19 pandemic?

I watched many of my friends lose their businesses, and have to pick up lesser paying jobs because of the pandemic.

For example, and a once thriving boudoir photographer ended up as a sous cook at a local Mexican restaurant. I remember when he messaged me the first time and explained everything going on. It was heartbreaking.

I was still waiting on what seemed to be forever. Contracts and meetings were stalled for my would be film, and I found myself a little too hopeful.

During lockdown, especially, I had free book promos available. I also began doing daily readings with my sacred geometry card deck.

Dating was a disaster during 2020-2022. Men either tried to scoop me up as quickly as possible, or, they would tell me I was too good for them.

One day I decided to just have fun for myself. What’s the worst that could happen? I began healing past hurts and forgiving myself as well.

In September 2021, I went to the art museum here in Denver, toured the greats (Monet and Van Gogh) then went to a birthday party. A fellow I met on a dating app was hoping we’d be friends with benefits. I mulled it over and changed my mind last minute, to his disappointment.

I felt really good about that decision. And continued practicing that self awareness with other suitors, until I found myself happy with my own company. I began expressing boundaries before relationships could start (which of course, always upset someone).

And eventually, ended up meeting the love of my life. Just last night, he was recanting the first time we ever spoke – just as I was thinking about that as well.

The pandemic helped me appreciate myself, more, as a woman. I began to appreciate my art, writing, and every stride I’ve taken to get to today.

It also helped me understand how it’s not my job to fix anyone. People will change if they want to. I had a habit of taking on impossible men with impossible issues, thinking I can fix them. Learning to stick with boundaries, and stay firm with my morals has shown me that I can be detached – witness it, but be neutral. Respond, don’t react.

I value existence and everything in it. Taking time to learn my sacred geometry deck, the seven main chakras, astrology, and vibrations…truly help pick up a lot of little lost pieces of myself. I prefer to spread the message along without thinking I need to gain funds in doing so. Help and guidance should be free.

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