There is something about patience that I marvel at. I am particularly patient myself, alongside my nature to never give up. What I find comical is when someone randomly suggests they are patient, but you later find they were plotting. The thing about waiting is…it can be nerve wracking. I find myself doing puzzles, reading…
Tag: understanding
Uplifted
A lot of what I witness now happens for two reasons – people do not change, and they hope you haven’t. My ex said this perfectly last night, and I couldn’t agree more, “people love their bullshit.” When you are unaware, haven’t healed and have no idea what’s going on, everything triggers you. People can…
Sustaining Effort
People don’t like hearing great things take time. Yet, anytime I’ve rushed anything, it simply never worked. While forcing anything also fails you, building over time is way more sustainable. Establishing yourself and remaining consistent are key. I’ve come to realize that no matter how much I say this, it falls on deaf ears. I…
To Embark
The sun sets over Colorado, another day to begin soon. I idle on how I feel, and realize that the older I get, the more others don’t seem to change. I’ll be 39 next year, I’m rolling in accomplishments, yet still silently think on what ifs, and so on. I used to help people often…
Not Willing to Wait
A repeated cycle that eclipsed my every move – the need to rush into everything, after having diligently taken my time to begin with. The fear of losing out. It was expensive. So I learned, because then I became more concerned about never understanding my mistakes. Really, I was looking for peace, and self awareness….
Dark Femme – Hidden
Barely entering a coffee shop, several people look up and watch me. I’m nervous, and I hate conversations. People prod to see how far they can get. If they can’t break past my defenses, I’m a bitch. Or not worth it I just want coffee. I nervously look up at the menu, biding my time…
Getting Back on Track
A lot has happened this year that has my household reeling, except that I also don’t want to forget what got me here in the first place. Taking my time. I’m guilty of thinking I can remove chunks of time to get to a destination faster. But I spent the majority of my life doing…
When It’s Forced
This is a topic that’s hard to explain. Reason being is because it is my personal experience, and people seem to not make sense of it. You can call it luck, fortune, opportunity, blessed. Whatever you call it, three things happen. First, people act like it’s out of this world and that it would never…
Materials – Unneeded
What could you let go of, for the sake of harmony? Items I’ve purchased or even things given to me, I will and have either given away or discarded them if they’re not usable anymore. It helps clear up clutter and my mind. Attachment isn’t healthy, and nothing lasts forever. Change is good. Creating space…
Fake Spirituality
I didn’t heal myself to save humans. I raised my vibration to heal the world. The planet. It’s a being in and of itself. The spirituality people are spraying around, this woke age. This open your chakras, buy gemstones and howl at the moon shit? Is kool-aid to fine wine. Did you do your shadow…
The Heiress JCS 