I never idle. I move when moved. I remember when the nurse from the clinic my mother visited called me right after I touched down in North Carolina – “she has cancerous cells…” Her voice trailed off. Cancer? I took a deep breath, respecting the confidentiality agreement. She told me what I could…it sounded severe….
Tag: understanding
Love Yourself 🤍
This is what I wanted – subscriptions, ads on my content. This is amazing. I didn’t hurt anyone to get it, including myself. I didn’t lie, or manipulate. It’s been blogged here before, but I slowed down. I stopped. I loved my life. I didn’t force anything. And then – this. It’s beautiful, though it…
An “Ism”
You cannot relay messages now, without people taking them way out of context. It’s easier to spot when anemone really needs help, more than you realize. We find peace in our own ways. Happiness comes to us in different routes. Contentment ushers itself in with different dynamics for everyone. Being easily triggered has two causes…
I Choose Me
One man talked so much, it was obvious he was hiding something. The other was way too sure of himself. And the last fellow wanted me but wasn’t willing to put in any effort. Meet me halfway. Um…no? Except, I blocked each and every one of them, and slept like a baby. Choosing myself is…
Oftentimes
It’s natural to hope and wish for things. It is unnatural to use your displeasure against someone. Whether it is your career, love or a longtime dream coming true…blaming others won’t make it so. You are then drowning in misery, and trying to take everyone along with you. I’ve heard a lot of people suggest…
Yeah, Sure…
There is something about patience that I marvel at. I am particularly patient myself, alongside my nature to never give up. What I find comical is when someone randomly suggests they are patient, but you later find they were plotting. The thing about waiting is…it can be nerve wracking. I find myself doing puzzles, reading…
Uplifted
A lot of what I witness now happens for two reasons – people do not change, and they hope you haven’t. My ex said this perfectly last night, and I couldn’t agree more, “people love their bullshit.” When you are unaware, haven’t healed and have no idea what’s going on, everything triggers you. People can…
Sustaining Effort
People don’t like hearing great things take time. Yet, anytime I’ve rushed anything, it simply never worked. While forcing anything also fails you, building over time is way more sustainable. Establishing yourself and remaining consistent are key. I’ve come to realize that no matter how much I say this, it falls on deaf ears. I…
To Embark
The sun sets over Colorado, another day to begin soon. I idle on how I feel, and realize that the older I get, the more others don’t seem to change. I’ll be 39 next year, I’m rolling in accomplishments, yet still silently think on what ifs, and so on. I used to help people often…
Not Willing to Wait
A repeated cycle that eclipsed my every move – the need to rush into everything, after having diligently taken my time to begin with. The fear of losing out. It was expensive. So I learned, because then I became more concerned about never understanding my mistakes. Really, I was looking for peace, and self awareness….
The Heiress JCS 