Sustaining Effort

People don’t like hearing great things take time. Yet, anytime I’ve rushed anything, it simply never worked. While forcing anything also fails you, building over time is way more sustainable. Establishing yourself and remaining consistent are key. I’ve come to realize that no matter how much I say this, it falls on deaf ears. I…

Stereotypes Equal Ignorance

I see the realm of ignorance hasn’t broaden. This is a touchy topic, but let’s talk about it. African Americans and other people of color stereotype their own people, constantly. My recent experience is proof many do not want to shed the bullshit. I have namely been classified as “white washed,” because I listen to…

Not Willing to Wait

A repeated cycle that eclipsed my every move – the need to rush into everything, after having diligently taken my time to begin with. The fear of losing out. It was expensive. So I learned, because then I became more concerned about never understanding my mistakes. Really, I was looking for peace, and self awareness….

Dark Femme – Hidden

Barely entering a coffee shop, several people look up and watch me. I’m nervous, and I hate conversations. People prod to see how far they can get. If they can’t break past my defenses, I’m a bitch. Or not worth it I just want coffee. I nervously look up at the menu, biding my time…

Getting Back on Track

A lot has happened this year that has my household reeling, except that I also don’t want to forget what got me here in the first place. Taking my time. I’m guilty of thinking I can remove chunks of time to get to a destination faster. But I spent the majority of my life doing…

When It’s Forced

This is a topic that’s hard to explain. Reason being is because it is my personal experience, and people seem to not make sense of it. You can call it luck, fortune, opportunity, blessed. Whatever you call it, three things happen. First, people act like it’s out of this world and that it would never…

Materials – Unneeded

What could you let go of, for the sake of harmony? Items I’ve purchased or even things given to me, I will and have either given away or discarded them if they’re not usable anymore. It helps clear up clutter and my mind. Attachment isn’t healthy, and nothing lasts forever. Change is good. Creating space…

Jealousy is an Ugly Color

I spent a very long time understanding my need for something. Ultimately, I realized it’s human nature. But never resorted to chopping others down to make myself feel better. Here we go again. Though I own a lot of jewelry, the personalized trinkets my significant other buys for me are unique. I can’t put a…

Nothing But Time

When a butterfly emerges from its chrysalis, it takes hours to pump blood into its wings so it can fly. However, this is necessary, and not forced. It flows. Allow things to flow to you. No matter the outcome. Because if at any point in time, you’re shoving a situation to fit, it could fall…

No Glory But My Own

She idled off of every word before she attempted this. I’ve spent the last month and a half rushing behind her because no one else would. We were in a good spot, then she looked at me, her eyes glazed with envy and deceit. Her lips curled up as she fashioned her neck back as…