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I’m not sure is the running theme. I have all I want to do, and yet I don’t believe it’s all possible. At least right now.

And that’s alright. I know if I try juggling everything by myself, it’ll end in misery.

My vacation with my significant other and kiddos was great! We did a lot, especially the two of us.

From new nose piercings, to an oddities expo…we even recorded our first song together in the studio!

I had such a great time.

When I first arrived in NC, literally…he parked at the hotel and the clinic who had my mother’s test results called. It is far more dire than her simply having cancer – they want to operate to remove it.

The nurse could have said many things. She apologized, which added more angst to this ever evolving bullshit. While it is my mother’s choice, and there are confidentiality agreements with the healthcare system, “she needs surgery,” and “I’m sorry,” pretty much sums up what everyone in my family is thinking.

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Then there’s her attempts to play mind games. But she is weak and tired…so they flop. I’ve been direct and put my foot down about a lot. I honestly don’t care how she feels about it.

The most I’ll be doing right now is what I can, without over exerting myself. The rest will fall into place.

♥️