Caffeine is currently spiraling through my bloodstream – before I eat. Is that a bad habit?

If so, it’s spiced chai tea, I feel as though coffee makes me overload.

Midnight conversations with my significant other kept me up past my bedtime, but it was definitely worth it. His music is doing well because the right people are seeing it. Oftentimes, we thank our fans, but never the people who help us. His mindset is different, so he has questions.

Individuals who are great never seem to act that way. I believe it’s called impostor’s syndrome. He his extremely talented. His listening ear is exceptional, and he loves most art. Because of his great tastes, I may have fallen earlier than I led him to believe – we shifted stances from friends to something more. It was a fairy tale I’d written out, and it slowly played on some type of shared TV, channeling our thoughts and emotions.

A magazine syndicate approached him recently – he asks me these questions because I more than dabbled with the sorts. I was to work for Max Magazine, an Italian Syndicate. If you know my work and beliefs, you’d understand why that was a great fit. But, I feel it was appropriated by that billionaire I dumped, so I was more than happy to flee.

No, I had to tell him, this is happening. A recording company he followed was pining for him to release music. Every single time he releases a single, they share it without question, always suggesting he fits among the others under the label. He’s pinching himself. And I am in awe. A humble, talented man is very rare.

I would rather witness a man, in my eyes, playing it off, than I would a man who has nothing yet says everything. Those types seem to be running the world; flights of fancy and grandeur delusion are dangerous when mixed together. He sighed deeply after my pep talk. But he is great, I wouldn’t bother otherwise.

Family and friends said it would be impossible finding someone like him. It was extremely hard, but not impossible. I knew when we first started talking that he was on my level. I never had to stoop, even when he acted like he was reaching up. I realized after awhile, he hadn’t placed me on a pedestal, but he was determined we’d be together.

For once, I am not condoning someone else’s unscrupulous behavior, or insidious thoughts. I am encouraging him – stoking a fire that had solely been embers for a while. Those are the most dangerous. You assume it isn’t hot enough, and then it burns down an entire ecosystem.